Boys

This week, 3 years will have gone by since these two little boys left.

I remember the day like it was yesterday. It was Thursday, the national day of prayer. It was beautiful out. The sun was shinning, my flowers were blooming. Everything on the outside was perfect. Yet on the inside I was trembling, scared, mad, angry, confused, and devastated.
.WHY.
Why was this happening? Why did it have to happen?
Why did I have to be apart of it?
I still don't have any answers.
I don't have any reasons to give.
Except that God is in control.
He always has been and always will be.

Little boys, now 4&5, I miss you.
I miss your smiles, your mischief, your laughter, your stubbornness.
I wonder how you are.
I wonder if you are being loved and cared for like you deserve.
I hope the Jesus seed we planted in your hearts, is being watered.
I hope you were told today you are loved.

Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."